what to do???

so i have been praying about what God wants me to do for the past month or so, and when i say praying i mean, every morning, night, and whenever i am alone and thinking about stuff (which happens a lot for those of you who don't know me well) And anyway, as i have been praying i have began noticing that everything i had planned out, i have lost complete interest in. That is a big deal to me, because i am very stubborn and when i set my mind on something, i do it. So for me to just lose interest in something is kinda weird, but i know that God will lead to me where He wants me to go. Ive also had the sudden urging to get out of Albany, granted I'm sure being a senior in high school and my living here my whole life has something to do with it, but there is something else pushing me to get out now! its hard for me to explain, especially since I am still trying to figure out how to interpret what God is saying to me.

I have been getting to know a lot of people lately and i am beginning to realize how many awesome people there are in this crappy little city, it is very interesting to me that as soon as i get my life on the right track and i start making friends that i know are true and "good" for me that i have the urge to up and move. I mean i get the feeling that God is telling to get out of Albany for a reason that he plans for me somewhere else in the world, and I'm sure he does, i just wish i knew whether or not it was just my mind going wild or if this is the real thing and that God really is telling me to get out and find a city that could better use me. Its weird, here i am 17, going on 18, and i am already trying to figure out my life, i guess its just because all my friends are in their 20's and they all have it figured out mostly....i dunno..What i do know is that I love God and i know he will always be there for me when i need him most, and even when i don't think i need him because he is always there even though we cannot feel it!!!

I am beginning to realize how messed up Albany is becoming, which is somewhat of an oxymoron because i see all these churches and youth groups that are trying so hard to grow and make a difference, but at the same time i am seeing just how much drama Albany revolves around. I had a not so wonderful confrontation today with someone who was basically calling someone whom i grew up with and used to be very close to, a loser ( there were some choice words but this seem more appropriate) anyway she went on to say how gross his girlfriend was and how much of a loser he was because he told his girlfriend something she told him, and it basically escalated into her calling these two people that i care a lot about losers, i don't want to say i went off on her, but i basically called her out, and told her that first of it was not her place to judge them and how she was just living off the drama of trying to get me involved.....it was weird because i have never had the experience of telling someone off and backing up what i said from the Bible, it was a cool experience, and when i say tell off, i simply mean calling her out on being so judgemental.................

This blog seems to be getting longer and longer so i think I'm just gonna end it now.....anyway good night to all, and God Bless!!!

David